A Song

I don’t know who Tracy is.  She could be me.  She could be you.  She came to me in one of those sublimely ridiculous dreams that refuses to die in the morning.  In the dream, Bob Dylan was singing a song about a fast-pitch softball player trying to stay clean.  The only line that made it through waking was, “she could throw that ball right through the prison wall.”  Anyway, this is what I made of it later:


Tracy

Tracy had a dream of flying

Far above the walls that bound her
Slip the ancient chains around her
Just to be without explaining or defying

In her dream she soared so lightly

Far above the arid highlands
Of the desolated islands
Where the fate she left below her burned so brightly

But somehow the sky betrayed her

In her veins there burned a fire
An unquenchable desire
To still the discontentment deep inside her

Now Tracy dreams of dying

In the old abandoned doorway
That once opened to the heartbreak
That she flew away and left behind so blithely

Christmas Tanka

Don’t look for wild geese

To lift the darkening sky
The inner burning
That leaves you so exhausted
Will also light your way home

In the crisp morning air

In the crisp morning air of December,

The specifics of which have already fled,
As if avoiding the inevitable revision,
A pair of birds met
At the window feeder.

The cardinal, red and boisterous,

Used to bullying wren and finch alike,
Held tightly in a flurry of feathers,
Incredulous of the pure audacity

Of the red-bellied woodpecker

Who had arrived headlong
All a-clunk into the swaying feeder,

Oblivious of its king.

Stillnesses

We think
Still air forebodes
Hearts slow, lungs expand,
Chests heave and waists strain.

The interior world is shut

Antennae point outward
Sweeping horizons
– for what?
Just movement
Anything

Still water conceals

And obscures currents
And a curious rumble
A single pebble

Still souls open

To a single moment
A dimensionless point

A self unraveling

A flock of haiku

Who would like to be

The man who mistook his life
For reality?

A blinding snowy owl

Winged its way into darkness
Like a memory

Let the flames die down

Turn off the lights, kill the sound
Fling wide the windows

Golden rays

Of laughing children
Unscolded

Early December
Winter struggling to emerge

A difficult birth

Sun recedes, air cools.

Some days, though worth repeating,
Fly with the wild geese

For Dave Brubeck:

The stage is quiet

Shadows lurk in the wings
Dave is taking five