Ancestors

I am a born refugee from a long line of refugees
From the blowy fields of Latvia to the Russian steppes
Gypsies and barons, unknown and unnamed peasants
Bits from Siberia and Maghreb alike, and urban tumults as well

Like a hard, ornery piece of stray conglomerate
Pierced, cracked, and fragmented, but still unchanged
Molded by the long, strange passage of time and grief
Joy and monotony, plumped down here to explain it all

My people came from Africa, before civilization,
Before time pressed closely in undelineated space
Long before the ice had eased its grip
And waters lay below landscapes long unseen

Refugees from a refuge grown too narrow, too cruel
Somehow no longer able to provide that sustenance
That feeds not only the belly, but the heart and soul as well
That held them to its withered dugs too tightly, too long

Well, yes, that, but the beginning was long before
In the tangle of tree and savannah, of tooth and of claw
That claimed the slow and feeble to feed the fat cats.
We, the slow and feeble, made an art of it

Our teeth and claws, dulled by native indecision
We replaced with bits of sharp stone
The tough sinews of creatures accustomed to hard living
We softened to our tongues with tongues of fire

We scraped the marrow from within pliant fibers
And bent the fibers to our own will
Binding, cupping and stitching until we carried
All our joys and sorrows in one great pouch.

Our ancestors before then were scurrying scruffy wads of fluff
With sharp little teeth, and claws on all four legs
For clinging to their world in three dimensions
While the great buffet of alien, lightly armored food drifted by

The legs were fins, and the fins muddled probes
And all was tiny living cells who, once upon a time,
By quirk or compromise, began to cleave together
Each heedless of its own demise in the cloud of protoplasmic ingenuity

All in one long, unbroken line, one great flapping rag
Of a prayer, as unlikely as unicorns
Down to the present time
Down to you and me

We were always true

We were always true.

Never balked at pain,
Looked destiny in the eye
And manned the barricades.

Our souls burst our chains,

Our ideals shone
Like the family silver.
Best of all
We never compromised.

You, on the other hand,

You!
Base-born vampires
Bleeding us dry

For nothing, as near as we can tell,

But unrelenting, unredeemable gain.
You stole the family silver.
Worst of all
You never compromise.

Digi-me, digi-you

I recently read that neurologists now think that it may be possible that a single brain cell may be associated with a single idea, one to one.

Digi-me, digi-you

Am I reducible
To a bag of chemicals?
Worse yet, a small sack,
A poultice of a few molecules?

And you, my friend,
A stray neuron?
Is all I know of you,
All our history,
Your tastes, your anger,
The color of your hair,
The annoying way
You crack your knuckles,
Is all of that
A few amino acids? 

I’m bedeviled by the question of
Which one is you?
If they dismantled my brain
Into separate cells,
Which one would be you? 

Or me,
For that matter. 

If they do that
Let’s hope we don’t
Fall into the wrong
Heads.

Why whales beach themselves

Once, long ago,
Whales lived on the land
With their cousins, the humans

There was sunshine
And rain so gentle it caressed
The thin and delicate skins
Of men and whales alike.
 
They cavorted together,
If you can imagine a creature
So ungainly
As a human
Cavorting.

There was plenty to eat.
Winged seeds, and tiny flying shrimp
Were everywhere.
All you had to do was open your mouth,
Sit back,
And nourishing goodness filled your body.

Then humans hatched a plan.
They would knock down the bounty
That was free to all
Collect it
And hide it away for themselves.

Naturally, God was annoyed.
All the goodness he had spread
Was gathered in dark pits,
Hidden away and guarded.

But humans blamed the whales,
And God was not experienced in deceit.
So he banished the whales,
And doomed them to swim forever.

Still, some great and wise whales remember,
And fling themselves back on the land to die.

The damned humans, of course,
Put them back in the water.

Confession

Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. 

It has been 51 years, 8 months, and 22 days
Since my last confession. 
I have had impure thoughts 368,933 times,
Disobeyed my parents 577,999 times,
Used the Lord’s name in vain 12,647,978 times,
And missed Sunday Mass 647 times.

Bless you, my son. 

Say 10 Hail Marys
And leave $500,000 in the collection basket next Sunday. 
In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Amen.