Mirror

They’re not so much precious,
these last days, as they are
fleeting.

You’re eating a pizza,
or learning to drive a car,
choosing what to make of a
future,

Or preoccupied with worry
about the news:

a revolution somewhere you never heard of,
a dead president, a moon landing,
a war that smoldered by,
then blew into a wildfire,
the irony of wearing fatigues
to a peace march you drove to.

Of happiness beyond imagining
or of misery just as deep,

of companions long gone,
of those who stayed for life
and died.

You might be thinking
about a career you found yourself in
years later, of making do,
of trying vainly to retrace
a path you thought you never took.

Suddenly you remember cleaning out your desk, filling boxes
with tools and dreams alike.

It’s Monday and you don’t feel well,
and you happen to catch a reflection
in the mirror, someone you thought you knew.

Ghosts

They come for you in the small hours,
in the cracks of consciousness
too thin for even grief
to get a foothold.

It suits them fine,
this arrangement of equals,
nothing to add or subtract
from either side.

There is no magic,
no grand unfolding of design,
just idle chit-chat,
the merits of trivial decisions,

whether this or that thing
has this or that meaning,
whether or not you’re asleep,
and which of you is dead.

Let it go

All the suffering
The joy
The pain
The ecstasy
The misery
The loneliness
The exhilarating feeling

That you need someone
That you need no one

Let it go
Release it
Fling it away
Drop it on the doorstep
Forget you’ve ever
Forgotten it

Think of nothing
Think of everything

Let it go
All the injustice
The vindication
The brutality
The losing
The winning
The flattery
The comeuppance

Let it go
Even in the end
The letting go

Paloma

Cucurrucucu paloma
Cucurrucucu no llores
–Tomás Méndez

Don’t cry, Paloma, don’t cry
there is no beginning
and no ending
but one eternal
moment

unblessed, uncursed,
unaware of itself
just like you
at the edge of
consciousness

dreaming of stolen
worlds you never knew

Don’t cry, Paloma, don’t cry
everything passes
even the passing passes
until only a thing
that might be a memory

elusive, winking in
and out of existence
just like you
remains, or does it?

Don’t cry, Paloma, don’t cry,
it’s only your dream
from which you will
never wake.

Uneasy lies the head

We ring the years in and out
like good paying customers
flashing credit cards

old year gone, be sure to
activate the new,
the last one spent ragged
as a frayed umbilical cord,

bells and carols gone
wasted and unused,
discarded with a shrug.

Remember when we had
never heard of Wuhan?