Mirror

They’re not so much precious,
these last days, as they are
fleeting.

You’re eating a pizza,
or learning to drive a car,
choosing what to make of a
future,

Or preoccupied with worry
about the news:

a revolution somewhere you never heard of,
a dead president, a moon landing,
a war that smoldered by,
then blew into a wildfire,
the irony of wearing fatigues
to a peace march you drove to.

Of happiness beyond imagining
or of misery just as deep,

of companions long gone,
of those who stayed for life
and died.

You might be thinking
about a career you found yourself in
years later, of making do,
of trying vainly to retrace
a path you thought you never took.

Suddenly you remember cleaning out your desk, filling boxes
with tools and dreams alike.

It’s Monday and you don’t feel well,
and you happen to catch a reflection
in the mirror, someone you thought you knew.

Let it go

All the suffering
The joy
The pain
The ecstasy
The misery
The loneliness
The exhilarating feeling

That you need someone
That you need no one

Let it go
Release it
Fling it away
Drop it on the doorstep
Forget you’ve ever
Forgotten it

Think of nothing
Think of everything

Let it go
All the injustice
The vindication
The brutality
The losing
The winning
The flattery
The comeuppance

Let it go
Even in the end
The letting go

Late March,

sunny, chilly, the wind brisk but toothless.
March, as March should do, marches on,
winter grudging every degree of discomfort displaced.

As a boy on mornings like this I used to walk the railroad tracks
past factories in the low piercing light
kicking up dust, examining the artifacts left by passing trains —
bottles, bean cans, scattered pages of illegible text,
and the occasional leg bone of a vanished
furry animal, hobbled off or eaten whole.

I was looking for anything new, it didn’t matter what.
There would be sudden neighborhoods,
unfamiliar soil, sometimes a pool hall,
a secondhand store,

or a diner. I would sit and imagine
what it would be to live there, to always order
the same lunch, to indulge in idle
ruminations with the help.
In the long, slow afternoons I would watch
them fill the rows of ketchup bottles
on the counter and the tables.

Always filling, never washing.
It occurred to me that at the bottoms
of those bottles lay the remnants of the
Original Primal Ketchup in its few remaining molecules.
I couldn’t guess its age, much older than me.

We can never escape the past,
it is our stuff, our formless substance.

Vigil

We put these offerings out
into the blunt nothing of tomorrow,
then wheel about and drift off
impatient to gather more

and all our works and amusements
all delights and suffering
lie unclaimed
sliding into yesterdays

they will waste until our bones
are no more than a smear
beneath a rubble

until we and everything
known to our kind
have vaporized and seeded the cosmos

and somewhere the light is lifting
and fragments gather into wholes

Spring song

Spring is here
the sun rises early
and scoots across the sky
slowing only for high noon

Spring is here
the hawk patrols his highway
field mice scatter
songbirds bicker in the bushes

Spring is here
something – a flower, a tree –
pushes up through the
loose soil of a grave

Spring is here