Precision

The precise forces of living
Hinge on a paper-thin reality
Behind which lurk the illusions
We work so hard to uncover

The precise moment of discontinuity
Comes when we discover
That a lifetime of regrets
Is only a simple misunderstanding

The precise inclination of a heart
Determines the difference
Between love
And death

Fern Hill, by Dylan Thomas

If I had to choose the single biggest influence on my poetry, it would be Dylan Thomas. The wild, unexpected images, at once daring and inevitable, just turned my head as a young man. Here’s one of my favorites.

Now as I was young and easy under the apple boughs
About the lilting house and happy as the grass was green,
The night above the dingle starry,
Time let me hail and climb
Golden in the heydays of his eyes,
And honoured among wagons I was prince of the apple towns
And once below a time I lordly had the trees and leaves
Trail with daisies and barley
Down the rivers of the windfall light.

And as I was green and carefree, famous among the barns
About the happy yard and singing as the farm was home,
In the sun that is young once only,
Time let me play and be
Golden in the mercy of his means,
And green and golden I was huntsman and herdsman, the calves
Sang to my horn, the foxes on the hills barked clear and cold,
And the sabbath rang slowly
In the pebbles of the holy streams.

All the sun long it was running, it was lovely, the hay
Fields high as the house, the tunes from the chimneys, it was air
And playing, lovely and watery
And fire green as grass.
And nightly under the simple stars
As I rode to sleep the owls were bearing the farm away,
All the moon long I heard, blessed among stables, the nightjars
Flying with the ricks, and the horses
Flashing into the dark.

And then to awake, and the farm, like a wanderer white
With the dew, come back, the cock on his shoulder: it was all
Shining, it was Adam and maiden,
The sky gathered again
And the sun grew round that very day.
So it must have been after the birth of the simple light
In the first, spinning place, the spellbound horses walking warm
Out of the whinnying green stable
On to the fields of praise.

And honoured among foxes and pheasants by the gay house
Under the new made clouds and happy as the heart was long,
In the sun born over and over,
I ran my heedless ways,
My wishes raced through the house high hay
And nothing I cared, at my sky blue trades, that time allows
In all his tuneful turning so few and such morning songs
Before the children green and golden
Follow him out of grace,

Nothing I cared, in the lamb white days, that time would take me
Up to the swallow thronged loft by the shadow of my hand,
In the moon that is always rising,
Nor that riding to sleep
I should hear him fly with the high fields
And wake to the farm forever fled from the childless land.
Oh as I was young and easy in the mercy of his means,
Time held me green and dying
Though I sang in my chains like the sea.

I find the last two lines especially poignant.

Wisdom, it’s said

How odd, when teacher becomes pupil.
How startling, when a depth of meaning
Lay on the surface all along.

Wisdom, it’s said, is indistinguishable
From farce in the fullness of youth
Or unmitigated age, bent on redemption.

Could it be we’ve seen all of it?
No use adding footage to pore over
In search of cheap salvation.

There, written on a careless breeze
Was the whole of it,
Gone until the next moment.

Stranded by morning

Serenity falls
Into the open morning
Stifling a yawn
Life ain’t what I thought it was
All those years ago

In the end, all the pain and joy
Alike

Fell in a grand heap
And life, stripped bare
More like a humping walrus
Than a lame gazelle

A poet once told me
He’d rather write about
Cabbages

Quanta

I try to find myself
Amidst the debris of living
The present is not now
The past is open to conjecture
The future a mere whimsy
A thin cloud composed of remembrance and hope

I know faith and philosophy
That’s not my point

Amidst the clatter of thinking
Emerging notions like stray photons
Almost grasped, almost seen
Only to wink away
Just at the moment of recognition
There still comes something familiar
Some pattern
Some wrinkle of repetition
Just enough to grab a flimsy hold —
As if on reality

Shall I say a thing
Hoping for some connection
Some proof of contingency?

All there is is is